Whatever Tomorrow Brings...

So, back from the retreat. Good times, gooood times. Now, there's a problem of confidentiality. All that. Which is kind of a pain, given the fact that at least one of my followers over on Twitter is going to be going on this same retreat next year.

Anyway, Sternsie, if you ever care enough to read these things, SPOILER ALERT.

Now that we have that out of the way, the retreat. The one thing that has stuck out wasn't the multiple masses, or the questions we were given. The thing that I most value? The stuff I kinda winged as I went along. For example, letters. I had some spare time; I wrote more than 15 letters that I really should send eventually. So far, I actually plan on sending...2. But, I got my thoughts down. Which should hopefully count for something.

Anyway, I don't think it's spoiling too much if I say that there's a point during the retreat where they allow us to go to Reconciliation. (Catholic guilt rears it's ugly head!) To start the whole thing, they gave us a sheet with common moral failings; looking at porn, getting high, that kind of stuff. However, thrown in there is "Do I get too down on myself? Do I not recognize the gifts that God has given me?". Yeah...that one took a while. Most people, in talking to the priest, had one, or at most two people end up in line behind them. When I was done? Four people. I had talked for a while. And, you know what? It felt good. Even if I'm not that strong in practicing my faith, (I'm, for all intents and purposes a CEPSO Catholic, it seems- Christmas, Easter and Palm Sunday). So, I took a look at myself. I've had people call me smart, funny, adorable, all that. I've never felt it to be true. Just don't see it. Of course, the priest said something that really struck when I was talking to him- "Perhaps others see something in us that we can't see in ourselves."

Thus, from now on, I'm going to try and stop myself from denying compliments as much as I have in the past.

I'll just deny perceiving them in myself. Also, note that I only said "as much as I have in the past". Not "completely". :D

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